I'm really struggling...

Hi all, I wasn't sure whether to open up about this, as I'm very much a guarded person and find it extremely difficult to just be as honest when it comes to my inner feelings. But I really cant handle it any longer and need to let it out.... How do I begin... I've been in Dubai/Sharjah for around 16 months to be exact, and in the last year or so I decided to start looking for a job to keep occupied with and to grow as a person. Unfortunately, I haven't found anything as of yet, and have really branched out in my choices from looking for things that are what I want, to now optioning for anything at all. I've had a few interviews here and there, and for one job I had three, to which I hadn't heard back from (turns out it can do 'wonders' for your self esteem). And since the last 6 months of trawling through and through in the job searching journey it had led to me in having some really negative and frankly depressing feelings, I've suffered with depression in the last 10 years or so, on and off, and it has been manageable but lately its been its worst; I'm really (emphasis on the really) struggling. Who would have thought you can be depressed living in one of the most beautiful and privileged places on earth?? Well you can be when you feel you cant do anything about it, I just feel worthless despite my best efforts, and I look back at how hard I worked to achieve a degree despite having all the odds against me and in gaining substantial work experience in a job which I hated but I trawled through it so I could have some experience. Ultimately, it feels everything I had gained was pointless, as it hasn't served me one bit since..... People have suggested to me to get into volunteering because then you are keeping busy, but as of the last few weeks things are going downhill financially..,.My husband is currently the breadmaker as hes the one with the job, but currently his job is looking unstable, and he already has several financial commitments so there's a lot of pressure on his shoulders, and recently he has gotten a lot more down because of this. I currently feel helpless as I have no job yet so desperate to support, and if I had some money coming in, it would ease things financially for us and give the boost we need. I really don't know what else I have to do to earn a job, I apply online on a daily basis, I have visited schools/orgs to which they say 'we will contact you if anything comes up', I have contacted agencies, companies, applied repeatedly to the same organisations, I've exhausted all options to which I've lost all hope in finding a job... I no longer want to go out and meet people, or have the drive to explore the uae as I used to. Is this my life from now on...? Who knows...