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Latest post on 18 March 2012 - 11:41
Thanks for enquiring outheredxb! Feeling like a new person today. Had a rubbishing weekend ... but feeling better now. I am determined to not let this bring me down. I am feeling much more confident. Not sure how long that's going to last LOL! but I am going to try. The crash dieting has atleast given me my self confidence back (but I dont suggest anyone to do it ... because I know it is very dangerous!) ... I have gone from dress size 12 to 8! ... I am loving my new body and I have stopped starving myself. Nibbling now and then ... I am determined to lose a little more of that fat around my waist. Have registered for some volunteer work ... everyone on here has done so much for me that I wish to return the favor by giving it back to the society I live in. Moreover it will help me realize the good things I have in life. I am going to learn to dance. That was always my love .... and thought its never too late to start! I guess I am starting to realize that life's too short to moan :)
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Latest post on 16 March 2012 - 14:06
I was! lol! I know have a waistcoat though for one year old .... If you are still looking, I can confirm the size and let you know.
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Latest post on 16 March 2012 - 00:21
you could borrow from me if you wish. I think I have one. Disclaimer: I have no clue what i am talking about unless otherwise stated. I am on my third shot ... and I have never done this before.
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Latest post on 15 March 2012 - 23:11
I guess you have loads of voluteers DC ...
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Latest post on 15 March 2012 - 21:48
@twilight - You got it right girl. Sometimes a kick on the rear can knock back senses in people :) I like hard talk now and then :) @Greenish - You are very kind hearted greenish. Thank you very much for checking in and I am feeling better. Taking one moment at a time. :) Managed to get some exercise and some good juices into my system today. Not able to eat yet though. @October - I am doing exactly that ... talking to strangers. But being a public forum I am not able to vent completely. But I have spoken to a few who I can confide ... and they have helped me up. Its been a great motivation just talking to strong people. @Donfer - Thank you for the suggestion. I have noted it down and I would refer back to it whenever I am in need. Music is on right now ... and I know how much I missed this. Some time for myself! @summerdream - You are one very strong woman and I sometimes wonder how you have gone through so many trials alone. I have read many of your posts and I draw inspiration from every post you write. It is empowering to know we can get over it :)
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Latest post on 15 March 2012 - 21:24
Thats a brilliant idea DC. I would love to help you if you require.
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Latest post on 15 March 2012 - 12:46
Oh Hiccup, I just read this thread and sending you big cyber hugs. Glad that you're asking for professional help. I understand how it is very difficult to find great fab friends in dubai who won't judge you at all. However, if you would like to meet up just for a chat or to let it go, do contact me or any of the wonderful ladies here. Not everyone is living in a magazine spread house. :D Thank you for the hugs shjbelle .... I need them :) ... plenty of them!
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Latest post on 15 March 2012 - 12:28
Yep it is outheredxb! I am thinking of a jog. Weather looks beautiful. Sipping on my coffee right now, reading Www.lifewithgreyson.blogspot.com and counting my blessings. Life is harder for some others somewhere else. Hiccup, that lifewithgreyson woman is insane and I feel sorry for her kids. Your kids should thank their lucky stars you're their mom and not her. I just read one post of hers .... couldnt find the time to read the rest. The post I read was good ... so not sure!
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Latest post on 15 March 2012 - 10:07
outheredxb ... where in Dubai are you? Was wondering if you need company to jog? I would love to get out there and get fit.
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Latest post on 15 March 2012 - 10:03
I am amazed at how many women have gone through this and have successfully dealt with it. This feeling of being out of control is terrible and I am waiting to get back my original self. Hiccup - I know this feeling far to well!!! And my heart really goes out to you! It's the most isolated, helpless, fearful feeling :( How do I know Helen - she is my therapist, how do I know Norma - she is our couples therapist, and how do I know Dr Eather Eade - she basically put the life back in me when things were looking very, very gloomy! So you see, many of us have been there, are there and continue to work on facing our everyday struggles and challenges! Dubai is not known as a "hardship country" for nothing! Most of the times it's the wives who bear the nasty brunt :( All the best and know that there is hope x Hugs to you plumie. I can feel the pain in the words .... and I cant imagine what you might have gone through. I hope things have changed for the better now and please shout if you need a ear .... thats the least I can do. <em>edited by hiccup on 15/03/2012</em>
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Latest post on 15 March 2012 - 08:26
Yep it is outheredxb! I am thinking of a jog. Weather looks beautiful. Sipping on my coffee right now, reading Www.lifewithgreyson.blogspot.com and counting my blessings. Life is harder for some others somewhere else.
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Latest post on 15 March 2012 - 08:05
No no ... That would make everything too obvious. Stop paying the bill :D
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Latest post on 15 March 2012 - 08:03
I am planning on going for a complete health check TT. Thank you for your concern and advice.
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Latest post on 15 March 2012 - 08:00
DC please make sure you confirm from your paed. The reason being, no scar might mean the vaccine wasn't administered properly. My DS1 has a very faint mark and we had to do the mantoux test to check when he was 3. I left it too long because I was unaware and stupid. The three days of wait for the result .... was a very tough time. I was hoping DS didn't catch anything because we parents were ignorant to not have checked the scar. DS was underweight .... weighed 11 kgs at 2.9 yrs. We were suspecting primary complex. Thankfully the result was negative but we have been asked to redo the test if DS has recurrent bouts of coughs or has no proper weight gain. He is gaining weight now and immunity seems to be better. My heart says nothing's wrong :) <em>edited by hiccup on 15/03/2012</em>
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Latest post on 15 March 2012 - 00:07
I am already feeling a bit better. But that's only because I am totally exhausted now and I have no energy to cry anymore. I have gone through something similar (after DS1) without medication earlier. It was $hit. I still have tearful flashbacks about the difficult times I had. And the scars run very deep. I am not confident I would make it this time. If I lose control I would lose everything dear to me. And I am not prepared for that. I shouted for help, because I know I am not able to deal with these fits alone. When it strikes me again I do not want to do / say things that I never wanted to do / say (I wish last night never happened). I already have issues with controlling my temper. I know I am dealing with myself here. My biggest enemy is myself. Thank you for the suggestion on Omega 3 supplements sarassister. I would do everything it takes to help me feel better. Mariana - You are one strong woman :)
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Latest post on 14 March 2012 - 22:36
Thank you DC for your very kind words. I have noted down your email id. You could now delete it. I am amazed at how many women have gone through this and have successfully dealt with it. This feeling of being out of control is terrible and I am waiting to get back my original self.
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Latest post on 14 March 2012 - 20:07
Hiccup, I'm happy to hear that you went to see a professional and had a nap during the day as that helps to refresh yourself. Try and go out tomorrow and get some fresh air, a walk in the park or the beach which could clear your head. Since I thought it was food related my advice below might not help you, sorry I don't have anymore advice. I wish you the best of luck for the future and I hope you overcome these feelings and emotions and become the person you were before :) It could be food too UAE2012 adding to the woes. The therapist said exactly the same thing as you and I was only thinking about you when she said that. Thanks for giving me the heads up and I realise now how dangerous it could be. :)
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Latest post on 14 March 2012 - 19:53
I am trying to be very cautious about what I write twilight. I don't know too many people on here. And have taken the liberty to say certain things from within my caution zone. I can still think :) ... And thank you for being concerned :). What am I going to do to return the favour you all have done?
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Latest post on 14 March 2012 - 19:10
I am sorry I am unable to reply to each post on here. I am reading everything and you all have no idea how much each word means to me. I finally managed to eat my lunch and sleep for 2 blissful hours! I was super tired. Feeling better :) ... But have this feeling of heaviness in my eyes and weirdly dizzy. Edited because twilight is right. I think you girls are smart enough to read between lines :) <em>edited by hiccup on 14/03/2012</em>
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Latest post on 14 March 2012 - 15:40
I am back from the therapist. I am not sure whether it has helped me. Am I supposed to feel happy the instance I leave? I am feeling indifferent. I have another session scheduled next week. Hoping it would get better. The therapist has not prescribed any drugs yet, she said she won't rush into it until the next session. For now Panadol Night it is. Thanks for the very kind offers Aussiepup, outheredxb and purple. I do have a helper and thankfully food is not an issue. I wish it was easy to snap out twilight. But I promise I will try my best.
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Latest post on 14 March 2012 - 10:21
Aussiepup, your offer means so much to me .... I can't express. I am missing my mom who is my rock. But I can't put her through this ordeal. You all are filling up her place today. Thanks to every person who has taken the time to read my rubbish and reply to it. I would keep you all updated on how it goes. The last time I met a counsellor (not a professional counsellor but a father) I could not speak anything. I just felt blank. Guess I approached the wrong person. Hope today would be a different day.
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Latest post on 14 March 2012 - 09:56
Hiccup, a huge pat on the back for taking this first step!!! Helen Williams @ Lifeworks is one of the most compassionate poeple I have ever met & spoken to - she has a long waiting list, but worth her weight in gold! I can also recommend Dr Norma, who is much easier to get an appointment with, and just as good! Remember, it takes a very brave and strong woman to admit she needs help, so this is by no means defeat! God bless you and sending you much love & support! Let us know how things progress x Plumie ... Helen does have a huge waiting list. Until April end. I dont think I could possibly wait that long. So I have booked with Deena who is the only person available today. I am hoping she would be as good.
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Latest post on 14 March 2012 - 09:52
I have realized with all your advices I indeed need help. I have an appointment with Lifeworks this noon. I hope I will be able to share and spill everything with my therapist. It's been about 25 days since I am on and off with bouts of lows and highs. I have been over the world at times in this period ... and I have been in the lows of **** at other times. DS1 has missed almost 8 days of nursery, because I just wasnt in the mood to do anything. Not even wake up in the morning and get him dressed. DS2 is down with cold and I am not even administering medicines to him properly. I am obsessed with how I look and in the past 29 years this has never happened to me. I always felt beautiful and smart and now I feel like a stupid, ugly, incompetent and incapable woman. I have cried all night ... I am still crying ... and I dont know why I am going on about things that I cannot do anything about. I cannot change anything. This is part of the reason why I am feeling the way I do. This is all so unlike me ... I always thought I was a strong person. Hating every moment of today.
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Latest post on 14 March 2012 - 08:33
Ladies, All your words are making me cry. I wish I could just pour out my heart here. But the one who is supposed to support me through this is underplaying everything and going about with work like nothing happened. Greenish I have contacted lifeworks. I am hoping to hear from them soon. Hoping to get an appt today.
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Latest post on 14 March 2012 - 07:40
I don't have anybody to talk to. I can't talk to anyone about what has happened, not even my best pals. Everything around me seems fake. I don't want to break everything that I have built so lovingly with my own hands. I am trying to get in touch with anyone who could help me. I have tried a hypnotherapist but she is not going to be here until next week. I don't think I can survive that long without help. I am waiting for the clock to tick 9 so I could call a few more places and get an appt today. Life's a mess.
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Latest post on 14 March 2012 - 07:10
Thanks everyone for your advices. I am going to try and eat better. But honestly, I am not starving myself on purpose anymore. I am consciously keeping my sugar levels up, because I have to be on my feet the entire day with 2 LOs. I have had another horrible night with bad dreams. Uae2012 I have had thoughts about hurting myself too, but I will never do it. My children are more important to me than myself. I have not lost my entire power of rational thinking yet .... But I am afraid I will lose it someday if I go on like this.
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Latest post on 13 March 2012 - 22:38
[color=#000066'>I havent even weighed myself yet .. but I know I have lost about 4 kgs (as I can fit into certain clothes) .... should be in the 54-55 range ... need to go down to 50. Thats my target. But I am *gulp* crash dieting .... I realized that the first 3 days were horrible ..... but on the 4th day my body just wont want to eat ... so it worked great! Using lent as an excuse (25 more days to go!). I have one meal a day .... mostly whole wheat bread and some veggies. I have my regular tea with full fat milk. I am not depriving myself totally. .... [color=#000066'>[/color'>[/color'> Hiccup I saw that you wrote the above post yesterday and that you are also doing Circuit Factory like myself. Honestly crash dieting is not healthy and is very dangerous..especially when doing such high intensity excercise 4 times a week. Please start eating properly just foll the cf plan-eat clean and you will still see results without risking your health. But I cant .... I starved myself on purpose for 3 days ... after that I just couldnt eat. I didnt start with the intention of a diet, was just trying to inflict this upon myself, to forget everything that was hurting me. I am just plain obsessed about everything right now. f*ck I sound like a psycho. I think I need help.
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Latest post on 13 March 2012 - 22:33
Am I sounding dramatic or is there a real problem. What if the doc laughs at me and says nothing's wrong, I am only overreacting?
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Latest post on 13 March 2012 - 22:24
Just going through an extremely rough patch in my life. Scared of tomorrow, hate my present and want to forget the past. I just dont feel like eating. I am dieting ... but there is not even that urge to eat.
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Latest post on 13 March 2012 - 12:07
Way to go girl! At this rate, you are going to hit the dream number soon. But yes, do refrain from checking the scales everyday. Hide the damn thing! Check after 3 weeks and you would notice the difference. I have been lazy today ... haven't moved a muscle :/: .... But I am going slow on my carbs. So hopefully that should help. :D
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Latest post on 12 March 2012 - 17:49
Not me diyas ... my husband is incredible. I am thankful he told me I CAN'T do it. I love it when people actually put me down ... because it makes me do things I could never do! 3 more kgs and I will hit that before easter ... somehow I have a feeling I can! Diyas and outheredxb ... the biggest joy is when you see that weighing scale going towards your dream number. If you are patient and determined you will get there. And do give yourself some time post pregnancy Diyas .... but it does feel good to be lighter!
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Latest post on 12 March 2012 - 11:13
I havent even weighed myself yet .. but I know I have lost about 4 kgs (as I can fit into certain clothes) .... should be in the 54-55 range ... need to go down to 50. Thats my target. But I am *gulp* crash dieting .... I realized that the first 3 days were horrible ..... but on the 4th day my body just wont want to eat ... so it worked great! Using lent as an excuse (25 more days to go!). I have one meal a day .... mostly whole wheat bread and some veggies. I have my regular tea with full fat milk. I am not depriving myself totally. :D ....
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Latest post on 12 March 2012 - 10:22
Do you want a dieting partner to motivate you? I am here ... :) .... I feel guilty now if I eat white bread / rice noodles. I in fact ate like a *** yesterday after 20 days. But I am determined I wont pile on the kgs again. What motivates me? ... My husband.
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Latest post on 10 March 2012 - 12:12
Hi mahr! If you leave your email id, I might be able to help. Thanks.
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Latest post on 10 March 2012 - 10:16
What, in a room in a hotel? :D Lol! I wish. Had to come home early for DSs. The brats were up until 11pm :/: Blame your oldest DS for that. He's said to the younger DS 'listen, under NO circumstances can we BOTH sleep and leave them alone. I did that once and, well, let's just say YOU came along... we don't nee a repeat!' :D Great you had a fantastic night out anyway. Just being alone bring pulls those strings again. :D .... Under no circumstances I am letting that happen either. Lol!
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Latest post on 09 March 2012 - 18:13
You sleeping better? ;) Jack Daniels is helping me with that :D
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Latest post on 09 March 2012 - 18:12
Nip .. So so sorry to hear your news. I hate the feeling of helplessness when something like this happens :(. My prayers are with your mom and you. x
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Latest post on 09 March 2012 - 18:09
What, in a room in a hotel? :D Lol! I wish. Had to come home early for DSs. The brats were up until 11pm :/:
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Latest post on 09 March 2012 - 17:57
We finally went for a movie and had a drink! So far the best time we had together in 4.5 years :)
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Latest post on 07 March 2012 - 18:12
*looks around* Who are those innocent people again? LOL
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Latest post on 07 March 2012 - 17:49
What do you both like doing or enjoy? Now thats a good question! :D ... Well ... I dont know .... we both are very different personalities! I dont think we share anything in common! We like watching movies though ... thats one thing we both love (or he loves and I like). Get a room at a very nice and watch movies in birthday suit in bed :-P *Noted* ... :D any deals on at the moment? Am I asking for too much? :D
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Latest post on 07 March 2012 - 17:43
Keep it simple..that way you will enjoy each others company without too much pressure. book a table at a restaurant around the fountains at Dubai mall. Great weather, so a walk/watching fountains before or after dinner, followed by a movie at the cinema or at home cuddled on the couch? I find making elaborate plans just makes it forced. Maybe you could agree to meet at the place rather than go together - like a first date? Lol Thats exactly what we have planned! Movie followed by dinner in Dubai Mall! :)
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Latest post on 07 March 2012 - 17:39
We both love nature and travel. But we never have had a chance to spend some time with each other. We always placed our children first. But I now realize it is soo important to have that "us" time. Today I asked him out .... and he was a bit zapped!
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Latest post on 07 March 2012 - 17:35
What do you both like doing or enjoy? Now thats a good question! :D ... Well ... I dont know .... we both are very different personalities! I dont think we share anything in common! We like watching movies though ... thats one thing we both love (or he loves and I like).
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Latest post on 07 March 2012 - 17:25
I need ideas! I am rubbish at it (but better than DH ;)) ... this is my first date night with DH (after 4.5 years of married life ... long due). I was thinking movie and dinner. But it sounds pretty standard. Not bad though considering we have never been out alone ever, after marriage!
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Latest post on 06 March 2012 - 22:10
I might be able to help. Please email me at [email protected]
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Latest post on 05 March 2012 - 10:10
Kinkos might be able to do it.
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Latest post on 27 February 2012 - 12:07
AmyAus ... you have mail :) ...
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Latest post on 23 February 2012 - 16:10
I need some inputs please. It seems to have hit an all time low. I have started dieting to lose that last 3 kgs which has been with me since DS2. I am determined to do it ... With lent it shouldn't be difficult :). I need some energetic classes to go with it. I would love to learn a dance. Is there anything that will help me firm my body along with some fun. Gym is not for me! What else can I do? Has anyone gone through this? How did you work on getting your self back? Getting your self back ,no ! You can get better then that !I know you said gym not for you , but if you wanna look better then you looked when you were twenty HIT THE GYM ! Hire a personal trainer and you will ask yourself why you took so long.....Go some where where they do dif. clases as body plump/ combat/belly dancing and have fun . Been there , got my tshirt :):) LOL! You always make me laugh!! Thanks ... I think I'll bl00dy hit the gym!! And *we* are both looking at going together (thought you might be interested in knowing that ;) .... somethings in life are worth giving a chance) NO ![img'>http://www.pic4ever.com/images/snapoutofit.gif[/img'> DON'T DO IT ! Don't take him with you .You think it will be possible for you to look at some butts and rinse you eyes? And how will you flirt with some of the guys ....That's not good for self esteem . [img'>http://www.pic4ever.com/images/grouphugg.gif[/img'> :) You always come up with these unique ideas LOL! ....
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Latest post on 23 February 2012 - 10:25
I need some inputs please. It seems to have hit an all time low. I have started dieting to lose that last 3 kgs which has been with me since DS2. I am determined to do it ... With lent it shouldn't be difficult :). I need some energetic classes to go with it. I would love to learn a dance. Is there anything that will help me firm my body along with some fun. Gym is not for me! What else can I do? Has anyone gone through this? How did you work on getting your self back? Getting your self back ,no ! You can get better then that !I know you said gym not for you , but if you wanna look better then you looked when you were twenty HIT THE GYM ! Hire a personal trainer and you will ask yourself why you took so long.....Go some where where they do dif. clases as body plump/ combat/belly dancing and have fun . Been there , got my tshirt :):) LOL! You always make me laugh!! Thanks ... I think I'll bl00dy hit the gym!! And *we* are both looking at going together (thought you might be interested in knowing that ;) .... somethings in life are worth giving a chance)