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Latest post on 06 February 2015 - 18:30
I had two young kids , no family and husband working overseas. Nearly went under as neither were good sleepers. When I look back I would have killed for a maid but was in UK at the time so not an option. I survived but that's about all I did. I work out and here do huge school runs and manage just with someone coming into clean once a week. TBH, I don't have enough work for a full time maid but I do love having house cleaned thoroughly once a week. I guess my ideal situation might be a maid five days a week for a couple of hours at a time.
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Latest post on 06 February 2015 - 17:34
Re home work...there seems more at DESC than DESS. Year 7 there appeared to be a lot of project work which my daughter found time consuming and I don't think her research skills had developed sufficiently as it took her a lot of time to find the relevant info. Year 8 didn't seem as bad but I think she got more efficient. Year 9 there appears to be more again. Again, I guess it depends how conscientious they are in the effort they put in.... I know mine spent ages on a piece and another mum said her son spent ten mins. There is supposed to be a rota of when different subjects can set homework but teachers don't always appear to adhere to it..this is supposed to stop kids being overloaded. Typically we may not get home till 5.30pm or later and my daughter goes straight to her room for an hour or so. Weekends she generally has a good few hours. She does do homework at school but more the DT or IT homework where she perhaps requires to use sewing machines for example ( although. I think that sewing has been dropped from the curriculum). The only time she appears to do homework at school is when an assignment is due the next day. <em>edited by Buddha on 06/02/2015</em>
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Latest post on 06 February 2015 - 08:50
3pm finish and 1.15pm on a Thurs. The good things is that particularly as they get a bit older there are quite a few kids still at school till quite late waiting for parents to arrive for pick up. I'm embarrassed to say but because of sports activities at DESS etc my daughter often doesn't get picked up from DESC till 5pm or even a tad later. Generally other kids are about.
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Latest post on 05 February 2015 - 19:07
Ps I agree with everything Lolacat says. People drive from all over to DESC..there are a lot of kids living in Silicon but you will find kids attending from every area of Dubai. It's def worth the drive.
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Latest post on 05 February 2015 - 15:07
Ps I might be wrong but I believe there is very little training before school as difficult for kids to get changed etc in time for reg at 7.35am.
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Latest post on 05 February 2015 - 15:06
Congrats on getting into DESC! I also have sporty kids and one at each school. DESS does not provide transport which requires massive juggling and assistance from other parents. DESC takes buses to sports fixtures but doesn't always being buses back so you sometimes but not always need to collect kids. After school sports can be a problem at DESC as the ECA buses don't do specific drop offs ie the one for Motor City, AR, and all those areas simply drops the kids at Geant area in AR but again I just tend to give mine a little bit of money and she sits in KFC or Costa till I can get for her. It depends where you live I guess. What I have found though is that my child at DESC doesn't have as many opportunities for sporting ECA's as the one at DESS but there are lots of other ECA's on offer. Typically, my child at DESS will have sport activities every day after school and a couple of mornings but my eldest might only have two or max three sports activities a week but she is involved in other things. Year 7 was more difficult but now she is older she often just stays at school and runs round the playing fields with one or two of her friends.ECAs can sometimes be cancelled at short notice and if you don't regularly watch the communicator you don't know. Again, now she is older this isn't a problem. Year 7 tend to have teams only for year 7 kids. It it gets tougher to make teams on year 8 as it's year 8 and 9 combined teams. I believe there are also a couple of lunch time clubs. There are also several paid activities running out of DESC such as a thriving swim squad and football squads. Kids at DESC are very happy, confident and I agree with everything Lolacat said on another thread. <em>edited by Buddha on 05/02/2015</em>
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Latest post on 01 February 2015 - 19:06
Try the Eton institute
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Latest post on 30 January 2015 - 21:11
AnonDubai..I am not sure how OP can check but my DH def used his UK drivers licence to obtain a UAE one. He is an Australian passport holder. ( I know his Oz licence expired almost ten years ago so he must have used his UK one)
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Latest post on 30 January 2015 - 21:09
Careem will provide car seats although a bit more expensive than regular taxis. Depending where you live the metro might be an option. I am not sure how you can check but I am pretty sure my DH got his licence using a UK drivers licence but he is not a UK passport holder. I know his Oz licence expired years ago so he could only have got his licence using his UK one.
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Latest post on 29 January 2015 - 20:27
I am sorry if I sound negative but you can NOT afford to be hesitant whilst driving out here or you will be a danger to yourself and others. The driving is crazy out here...you need eyes in back of your head. Many drivers are super aggressive. For example - Putting one's indicator on to indicate a desire to change lanes is seen by many drivers as an admission of weakness and they will do anything to prevent you from changing lane. As others say, you can't just sign up for a test here but will need to do a whole series of lessons. Not quite sure what they teach as some of the worst examples of dangerous driving I have seen out here is from guys driving solo in instructors cars so I'm guessing they are the instructors. I would suggest you resit in uk and then if possible take an advanced driving course before coming out here. I used to drive 20,000 miles a year plus in uk ( for over 25 years ) . Out here, I average 1500km a week and there are still days where I find it intimidating.
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Latest post on 27 January 2015 - 21:12
Probably the biggest thing to budget for is the annual hike in fees. We have been here three years and every year fee has been increased ..think one year was 5%and the next year was 7%. Some schools have a lot of free extra curricular activities..other schools predominantly bring in outside providers. These can work out at around AED per session. Most schools have a couple of trips a year, maybe another AED100 per trip. Then in maybe year 5 or 6 there tends to be residential trips for one or two nights. Cost of those isn't cheap and many schools say they are part of the curriculum. Uniforms are another cost as generally each school has specific uniform ie you can't just pop into Asda and purchase cheaply. They tend to wear quickly not to mention lost on regular occasions. Depends on schools but as another poster says a lot of the schools don't have canteens. End of year and Xmas gifts for teachers can also add up. I tends to be that class rep collects a specified amount of money from all parents to cover gifts. I think I paid AED250 this year for one child.
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Latest post on 22 January 2015 - 07:00
I am in a rush so no time to respond fully but it jumps out at me that you almost certainly are not getting enough sleep. This could very well make you crave food and make you feel hungry all the time.
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Latest post on 21 January 2015 - 18:24
I've also seen their staff use the loo and not wash their hands.
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Latest post on 19 January 2015 - 09:08
Between 800 to 1000 a week for food inc packed lunches and if any money left from this then maybe a takeaway or cheap meal out.( two adults and two teenage girls) <em>edited by Buddha on 19/01/2015</em>
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Latest post on 18 January 2015 - 20:32
Oops. Didn't notice re no luggage
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Latest post on 18 January 2015 - 20:31
I haven't done Insanity since Oct. Just did the warm up today and near killed me. You buy Insanity as a box set. Not sure re T25
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Latest post on 18 January 2015 - 18:35
If flight is 10am is 8.30am arrival at airport not leaving him a bit tight particularly if he's using terminal 1.
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Latest post on 18 January 2015 - 06:58
Ranches is good but be aware that it can take ages to exit in the mornings. Have a look at Layan behind Ranches..easier to get in and out. All managed by Dubai Properties so prices are standard ie not at tne mercy of landlords. Mudon is another compound in similar area about to come online. <em>edited by Buddha on 18/01/2015</em>
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Latest post on 16 January 2015 - 16:18
Silstet..it's difficult to recommend schools on here as different parents will have different values. There are some schools that I personally wouldn't send my kids to but other parents have great things to say about them. Be aware when looking at the KHDA reports that a school showing as outstanding may not actually suit a child as well as one that shows as good. I believe the standard of Arabic teaching can have a big influence on whether a school obtains Good rather Outstanding. I would have no qualms about putting my child in several schools that score as good whereas I wouldn't place in a couple of the Outstanding ones.
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Latest post on 16 January 2015 - 15:50
March. - the following is cut and pasted from yesterday's newsletter "One of my tasks this week was to review our admissions policy with the admissions team and we have made a few changes based on recommendations from our recent DSIB inspection. Our current policy, it has been pointed out, does not necessarily reflect the inclusive nature of the College. Coincidently, this week is also the deadline for year seven applications for September 2015. The policy explains how we use a combination of details to select which students are offered a place at DESC. I think most people are aware that, first and foremost, we do not select academically. Our intake really is a reflection of the full range of abilities and we are rightly very proud of this. Our inclusive nature means that we are not looking to specialise in a particular area (whether that be academics, children with special educational needs, talents in sport or music etc.) but genuinely have students that cover all ‘categories’, for want of a better word. We feel it is important to be able to support students on the SEN register and stretch and challenge students who are considered high-attainers and, of course, everyone else in-between." Silvstet...def look for other aspects of a school as well as academia. Also check out what after school activities each school offers.
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Latest post on 16 January 2015 - 13:08
LadyMary....I can assure that many children in UK private schools work below national average so I would refute your statement that kids coming from UK private schools would always be ahead coming out here. Some might but some won't. On my high horse but I personally think that too much attention is paid these days to academic standards. There are other skills which are required which often get lost when academia is concentrated on . At primary level OP should simply be looking at a school which fits with her ethos and helps to make well balanced, well rounded kids.
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Latest post on 16 January 2015 - 13:02
LadyMary - and kids from state schools in UK also go on to very good universities so I'm not quite sure as to what point you are trying to make. Clever kids will thrive irrespective of the quality of the school hence even from a dire school you will still see kids obtaining decent university places. If kids are motivated to do well then they will succeed wherever. Education is a thorny issue out here. Yes, there are some schools who offer a high quality education, there are others who are ok, nothing brilliant but ok and there are others who appear to be more obsessed with profit making and "bums on seats" and all gloss type of appearance. It will be very difficult to get impartial advice on here as it's an emotive issue out here. As some parents have said in previous threads , for example DESS/DESC tend to be academically strong but I also know people who have taken their kids out of DESS/DESC to other schools and their kids have thrived and done way better . Conversely I know many who have moved their kids to DESS/DESC and their kids have flourished. I think your friend needs to have a good look at the websites and the ethos of the schools. Attempt to look beyond the gloss and get a feel for what the school offers. If the child really is academically gifted then they can sit the entrance exams for DC in the January of year 6. To be honest, particularly at primary school there are other factors just as important as academic ability...look at what the school offers in addition to their academics. DESC, contrary to what many people say is NOT academically selective and in fact they put out a message to that effect this week. So, to conclude my advice would be to thoroughly look at the website of schools and apply to schools where the ethos fits yours. In year 6, if academically bright then look at DC entrance exam. All is not lost, if the child doesn't get into DC as several secondary schools out here offer strong schooling.
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Latest post on 16 January 2015 - 12:48
Velmadoo...that made me laugh but sooo true re many parents believing their kids are gifted. As a teacher, if I had AED10 for every time a parent told me that their child was gifted I would be rich, lol. LadyMary...I know many schools here where kids get a way worse education than they do in a state school in UK. The point I was making was that my child was working well ahead of national guidelines in UK ie a good 4 or 5 sub levels above national average but yet she came here and was only middle of her class.
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Latest post on 16 January 2015 - 10:53
Bonbon - I am so pleased you have actually been able to discuss things with him. Actually it's not whether his behaviour is right or wrong that was the big issue. What WAS the issue is that you were unhappy with certain things and either didn't discuss or he dismissed your concerns. I always think that there is no right or wrong behaviour as different people will accept different things. Certain things will annoy some but won't annoy others. What IS important in a relationship is that BOTH must be able to discuss issues that concern them and the other partner should listen and both work together to come to a compromise or resolution. For relationship to work both must be secure enough to bring up issues that they know might annoy or upset their partner. It sounds as if you have started this process. Well done .
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Latest post on 15 January 2015 - 22:12
There are so many other factors that are important in a child's development than just academia. Every school will have different things to offer a child. You can have a school which is strong overall academically but your child might have a teacher that isn't great or it may just be that the child and teacher don't get on particularly well. Conversely you can have a school that doesn't have the highest overall academic standards but your child thrives. Different children flourish under different teaching methods. First she needs to decide whether she wishes IB or British curriculum and then start to narrow it down from there I personally would never choose a school just on academic standards but on all the other things the school can offer in addition to academia. Nowadays, it's far more important to raise a well rounded , well balanced child in all aspects of my life ( just my opinion). Choice of school will also depend on where the family plan to live and what their budget for schooling is.
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Latest post on 14 January 2015 - 20:15
Bonbon1. - I feel for you but a life long partner should leave you feeling content and secure. Any differences in opinion should be able to be discussed and common ground come to. I've been in a couple of dire relationships and in each one I blamed myself for wanting too much blah de blah. Thought it was normal. Was constantly agitated, worried, upset. It doesn't mean either is right or wrong...it just means that not particularly compatible. In a good , strong relationship both partners should be able to hear and listen to their partners viewpoints and if opinions still polarised should be able to come to some sort of compromise. A life long partner should make you feel special and valued, as you should make him. In a 50/50 partnership the more you give the more you get back but in your case it sounds like you are doing all the giving. All the issues you mention are incidental and sidetracks. The key thing is does he make you happy, do you feel secure and happy? If you are not happy now then believe me, things will only get worse. He will end up walking all over you. You deserve it to yourself to hold out for someone who will offer you so much more and there will be someone out there. Write down a list of things you want from a relationship whether it be team work, laughter, joint planning, common hobbies, different hobbies, goals....whatever it is that you want from a relationship in addition to what you have as an individual. Look at that list, tick of what you have currently got and if not getting close to 95% of what you are looking for then.... OP - I feel for you. I spent so much of my life in relationships which only made me unhappy....why? I now know that what. I wanted was more than possible but it took me a lot of courage and soul searching,
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Latest post on 12 January 2015 - 21:46
U just carry both passports with you..old one with visa and new, blank one.
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Latest post on 10 January 2015 - 17:00
My brother does.. Hard work and very tied although do get a few hrs free during the day but often lose this due to requiring to wait in for guests. Not sure what tips to give.
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Latest post on 10 January 2015 - 16:58
DT..that made me laugh re Spinneys but so, so true!! It's all relative..I have friends who plead poverty but still attend concerts, eat out regularly etc. Def agree re eating out Satwa or Karama etc or if use Entertainer vouchers it's possible to eat at places such as Carluccios for around AED100 for 4 as long as only order water. Had to laugh the other day, a friend was raving about a restaurant they had been to and how reasonable and cheap it was...AED360 for 5. I guess by their standards that was cheap but by others( ie mine) it would be a fortune..same as AED100 for 4 might be a fortune to some out here. I guess it's just down to what we expect and what we become accustomed to.
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Latest post on 10 January 2015 - 13:45
Apologies..didn't mean to come across in way it maybe came across. What I would say is that I was out here 20 years go and then moved back here three years ago. Although many people I knew from 20 years ago are still out here we sadly don't particularly socialise with them now as very different lifestyles..they're still on the full packages etc. Their social life and even areas where they live is very different from ours. I believe it's the newer expats who are increasingly coming out with no packages. They do this for many reasons such as unemployment or limited opportunities in home country or even just for an adventure. In our case it wasn't a family decision and not one done with best interests of the family as a whole but for sake of kids and to avoid splitting the family unit I'm making as good a go of it as possible. Some guys just like the expat life and even if not well re numerated will put this like of expat life before other concerns. I agree that other countries are getting more expensive but at least in most education is free...yep, we don't pay tax here but school fees are actually a bigger percentage of our salary than tax would be in home country. Financially, it's been a very bad move for us BUT on the plus side my kids have had their horizons broadened, their eyes opened and are now more aware of different opportunities available to them. They have gained so much in other ways.
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Latest post on 09 January 2015 - 21:42
Beebers and EmmaRitz - I can assure you that many people I know are not on packages. We pay our own schooling , flights and housing which leaves around 25% of our salary to live on. I know several expats similar positions but yes you're correct you probably wouldn't move in the same social circles because unless it's free trips to beach or visit to food courts then most expats in that situation don't really go out. It's def on the increase for companies recruiting and not offering packages. I know several families who in the last year have moved back to home countries but husbands stayed here, simply cos the companies are not paying packages and it's unaffordable to stay out here.
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Latest post on 09 January 2015 - 12:18
I think one of the other issues is where your husband will be working. You said south of Dubai, depending on how far this it will affect where you might want to live. As others said the the things to consider are 1.whether housing and school fees will be paid. If they are paid , is there a cap to them ie I know several people whose school fees are now way above what their company pays. If companies pay fees and less are now doing so, then they don't always pay for three kids. Secondary fees are way more expensive than primary school fees. My kids schools fees have risen 7% every year since arriving here . Rents are also increasing every year. 2. If company isn't paying then you need to ensure there is a big enough cushion to take into account school fees rising and rental rising. Be aware that rent cheques are generally paid in 1,2 or 3 cheques per annum ie you need a lot of money upfront. 3. We are on a hugely, tight budget here but do find lots of things for the kids to do at low or nominal cost but on the flip side many things their friends do cost phenomenal amounts of money ie even a gymnastics or dance class can easily be £15 or more per session. 4. Medical insurance also needs to be considered. Many companies state they provide insurance but when you look at the small print then the cover isn't what I would consider sufficient. 5. Schools are a very emotive subject out here. A couple are excellent, some are good and some are not so good. Cost of school doesn't always reflect the quality of the education. It's not always easy finding places in the more popular schools particularly in the younger years but there are more and more schools opening which helps although then it's impossible to obtain feedback as to the quality of the education delivered as they are so new. 6. If your kids are sporty then life can be great out here...loads of opportunities for them albeit does mean playing sport in the summer in temps of up to 40 degrees. Some kids cope fine, others not so well. 7. Summer holidays are very long and even for my kids and self who exercise in all temperatures it's very difficult to be outside say from around 8.30am till 6pm. Many expats return to home countries for this period so you may also want to factor this into the budget. 8. Staying long term you need to consider how to pay for kids university education etc. Often they will be faced with paying as overseas students in their home countries. Despite being financially very, very tight and not saving a penny I am glad I brought my kids out here. It's broadened their horizons and opened their eyes to the opportunities available to them. They've really enjoyed their time out here. We are lucky, however, that they are in one of the schools which obtains examination results akin to prep or grammar schools in UK. Education , therefore for my kids has been way better out here than in the UK. For many people, it can be the opposite. Good luck in whatever you decide.
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Latest post on 08 January 2015 - 16:55
Aurora at Pacific Prime give me a whole spread sheet of different insurers and what they offer at what cost.
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Latest post on 08 January 2015 - 16:51
There is also a Facebook group who meet regularly . Dubai and Northern Emirates home schooling or similar. Also as someone suggests K12
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Latest post on 08 January 2015 - 14:12
I am not sure whether anyone will carry a parcel belonging to someone they don't know.... <em>edited by Buddha on 08/01/2015</em>
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Latest post on 07 January 2015 - 07:03
I was 37 and 40. Never found it a problem... Only issue is that the longer you wait the harder it becomes to conceive.
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Latest post on 06 January 2015 - 12:59
Loads of kids and bigger ones playing in my compound this week. I know Rashid School for boys is not back so I'm guessing quite a few are still off. Traffic has been great this week.
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Latest post on 02 January 2015 - 10:35
So glad you saw someone and they have given you painkillers. Sorry to hear about the spots on the liver. Sending you positive thoughts and cyber hugs. X
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Latest post on 30 December 2014 - 15:44
Japs doesn't feed into DC. There is an entrance exam for DC and very competitive to get places. Japs has no secondary feeder school , so kids take their chances getting places into schools like DESC and EC etc etc.
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Latest post on 30 December 2014 - 11:58
Try clearing your cookies
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Latest post on 29 December 2014 - 14:29
I brought loads of ink cartridges but we moved in summer and when I got them they had all clogged up which I put down to the high temperature.
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Latest post on 29 December 2014 - 13:51
Not if can help it but my morning round trip is 90 mins on a good day and my afternoon one two hours. I know several people doing the same.
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Latest post on 27 December 2014 - 21:28
Any insurance you have in UK if taken with a uK licence rather than UAE is also invalid.
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Latest post on 27 December 2014 - 20:31
Business Bay is fairly central to anywhere. There are a couple of new GEMS schools on Al Khail road which is quite close to BB. You also have JC, EC, DESS and DESC all relatively close by but they are often full. Also DESS and DESC are split campus for primary and secondary and quite a way apart. Lots of people do both but adds a lot of driving. Over towards Motor city and AR there are several new schools, again prob about 20 mins drive from BB. To be honest, majority of schools are within 20mins or so of BB depending on traffic. You also need to decide whether you wish IB or British curriculum. If you have a look at the education section on this website it tells you which curriculum each school is. The older, non profit schools are more difficult to access places but not impossible. If you apply now you have a much better chance of getting places than those who apply later in ten year. Housing all depends on your budget. Business bay itself has many apartments, some furnished and some not. When you first come out you will have to stay in a serviced apartment for a few weeks as you can't rent till you have your residency visa. You will be able to use this time to look round at areas where you might want to live.
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Latest post on 27 December 2014 - 08:05
Most places in Dubai are relatively close to each other. Re schools..it depends where you can get places. If you look on this site there is a list of school and prices, reports etc. There has been a recent increase in number of schools opening so it's not as difficult to find school places as it once was but different schools offer very different things. I would suggest you firm up school places and then look at where to live. The schools that you find may offer a bus service. You need to be aware that if you plan to work there are no after school child care services so you would be looking at hiring a maid to be in your house for your kids returning from school. Kids in this scenarios generally return home by bus or the maid goes in a taxi to collect them. I wpuld say schools first, then look at area to live in. Area also depends on what budget you have. Schools also depend on budget as school fees are rising drastically ( plan for an annual increase in fees. ) Secondary fees can be almost double that of primary schools. Some of the newer schools are very expensive but even the older ones are catching up rapidly. Ditto re house prices..rent can increase every year which is something you need to factor in. <em>edited by Buddha on 27/12/2014</em>
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Latest post on 27 December 2014 - 08:00
Yep. I agree with Di@Dxb You can't do it and if you do it via a family member in uk it's technically illegal. If back in UK then it's important that you drive on Dubai licence otherwise your insurance is technically invalid.
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Latest post on 23 December 2014 - 16:05
Several things that come to mind. 1. Loads of new schools opening so easier to get places but as new not much info re quality. On con side, school fees are rising massively. 2. Rents have increased a lot in last two years. Places we looked at for AED90k a year almaot three years ago are now going for upwards of AED140k. 3. A lot more traffic on the roads..I think something like 20% more cars registered this year than last ( stats not exact but apparently it's a lot). On pro side, some new roads opened making it easier getting to some places. 4. Safa park is a mess at the minute as the new canal is going right through. 5. New running and walking path going from Umm Sequim beach to Jumeirah beach...broken in places but apparently will soon all join up. On con side..Jumeirah beach Park is now closed. Kite beach has been all revamped.
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Latest post on 22 December 2014 - 15:06
Duh a typo...should have been out not put. Ie cable car out of action last week.
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Latest post on 21 December 2014 - 18:03
Remraam has one beds from 50,000. It's out Dubailand paso arabian ranches. I live in a compound fairly close and can get to Garhoud in 25 mins at most times of day. Only issue with Remraam is that when you exit the compound you have to drive the e611 in jebel Ali direction for a good few kms before u turning . I have a friend who lives there and is in and put of her compound three or four times a day...says it isn't too bad. They are also supposed to be building a road straight to Motor Ciry which will help. I suggest you go for a drive and explore. Head up Umm Sequim st..cross the e311 ie keep following signs for cycle path and Babs al sham then turn right onto E611 and off at bathe first exit.
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Latest post on 21 December 2014 - 11:18
Re Creek Park. Cable car was put of action last week which is a shame