I am sorry to hear you are feeling so low and very sorry to hear about your stillbirth, that must have been absolutely devastating. I cannot offer any personal advice as do not have children and haven't tried to yet but I have friends who have tried for a long time and have spoken to them about it so I do know it is very upsetting to want it so much and not be successful.
Have you been to see a doctor? If you have been trying for over a year then I think it is worth just speaking to someone and asking for their advice, I have a friend in the UK who is currently going through a few tests to check that she is ovulating and other things and honestly out of everyone I know it seems quite common these days to have some difficulty conceiving, I guess because generally we leave it later now than previous generations did. I know it doesn't make you feel any better to know that others are going through the same thing but it is important that you don't feel like a failure but that it is normal to feel upset - I do think it is worth a visit to the doctor just to see whether there is any advice they can give. Really hope that your time comes soon but in the meantime it is important to try to keep yourself in good mental health and for it not to affect your relationship with your husband - there is a lot of help available these days if for some reason you are not able to conceive easily, keeping my fingers crossed for you.
Oh KittyKat, I really feel for you. As you said it's such a personal thing but so overwhelming too.
Can I suggest you make an appointment to see either or your GP or, if you feel up to it, a fertility Dr to get some basic blood tests done. Just with the basic tests you will be able to find out what your hormone levels are like and whether you are ovulating or not. Don't fret, there's plenty that can be done even if everything's not quite as it should be, starting with basic over the counter pills and supplements but the earlier you find out (and start taking action if it's needed) the earlier this will happen for you! I know it's easy to say but stay strong and believe in yourself.... and make a Dr's appointment :-)
Big hugs xxx
Hi girls..probably a very personal thread but i have been TTC for just over 12 months now...I am not a spring chicken anymore (41yrs) and i did have a stillbirth in 2011. We have been trying since March 2012 when i got the all clear from a specialist. Is it possible that i am not ovulating coz apparently ovulation has "some" signs to it..and i am not getting those sign?. Every month i get so sad and cant help crying myself to sleep at times coz i feel like a failure at the one thing that means so much to my DH and myself. Not even sure what i wanted to get out of this thread but just needed to tell "anyone" how i am feeling...maybe some pointers or advice on what to do...i just dunno anymore. :(