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Latest post on 16 January 2011 - 12:19

Hi ladies

I'm on day 5 of the stimulation phase and am a mess and struggling. I cannot seem to stop crying or feeling low and cannot seem to motivate myself to do anything. Is this normal or am I losing my mind? I feel pathetic.

TIA

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Latest post on 18 January 2011 - 09:41
Hi Dubai71, How are you feeling today? I had my first ICSI cycle last month - I thought I'd timed it well being over the Christmas and New Year period (thought the time would fly) but I don't think I could've chosen a worse time of year if I'd tried (no vino for a start - ow)! People react differently to the shots - for me, it was as if I had extreme PMT! It's only then that I appreciated how lucky I was to have such a laidback DH! I was SO moody and snappy with him and then I'd get teary knowing I was being a complete psycho *itch. Bless his heart, he took it all in his stride and was so good with me. I was also really nervous as I didn't know what to expect and was dreading the retrieval (which wasn't nearly as bad as I'd anticipated), so that just made me more edgy and tearful! Be easy on yourself - don't feel that you should be 'normal' as there's a heck of a lot of hormones coursing through you! I was on stims for 11 days and I did feel more like my old self for the last few days. Be kind to yourself, take it easy and hang in there. x Hey Gray Girl Sorry for the delay- I missed your kind message. I have felt quite a bit better today and yesterday, thank you. I think it's in no small way to reaching out on here and receiving some lovely helpful and thoughtful messages. I am not really speaking to anyone else about it so really do think that helped. You poor thing having the cycle over the festive period! We all need a drink to get through that! I hope that all's going well for you. Thanks again x
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Latest post on 17 January 2011 - 18:53
Hi Dubai71, How are you feeling today? I had my first ICSI cycle last month - I thought I'd timed it well being over the Christmas and New Year period (thought the time would fly) but I don't think I could've chosen a worse time of year if I'd tried (no vino for a start - ow)! People react differently to the shots - for me, it was as if I had extreme PMT! It's only then that I appreciated how lucky I was to have such a laidback DH! I was SO moody and snappy with him and then I'd get teary knowing I was being a complete psycho *itch. Bless his heart, he took it all in his stride and was so good with me. I was also really nervous as I didn't know what to expect and was dreading the retrieval (which wasn't nearly as bad as I'd anticipated), so that just made me more edgy and tearful! Be easy on yourself - don't feel that you should be 'normal' as there's a heck of a lot of hormones coursing through you! I was on stims for 11 days and I did feel more like my old self for the last few days. Be kind to yourself, take it easy and hang in there. x
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Latest post on 16 January 2011 - 13:02
There's nothing to feel pathetic or ashamed about! It's a huge strain on you, both mentally and physically, and you need to give yourself a break. Be kind to yourself - heaven knows you need it at the moment. Sending a ton of baby dust your way!
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Latest post on 16 January 2011 - 13:01
IVF is no walk in the park....I didn't have the emotions that you are describing - I have just never felt so lethargic, heavy (I put on an extreme amount of weight) and unhealthy in my life. I also struggled with feeling completely out of control of my body. My sister however felt IVF made her "crazy"....completely out of control emotions. As ANT said - it is just the drugs, and in reality it is for a short time, and hopefully at the end you will have a wonderful, joyous baby....and that is what makes it all worth it. Hang in there and good luck.
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Latest post on 16 January 2011 - 12:50
Hi Dubai71, you are completely normal given the circumstances! I have done 5 cycles of IVF and two of them successful. At times I was completely irrational and emotional, and it is only once I came through the other side did I realise how mad I was! Although god forbid anyone, especially husband, if he tried to tell me to calm down or that it was the drugs. It feels so real. But it really is the drugs plus the whole emotional turmoil, the what if's, the worry, the hope... I underestimated the whole thing - tried to pretend I could cope, it was no big deal etc etc, but really it is ****** hard going. For husband aswell, although they might not show it or talk about it as much as we want or expect them too. Sometimes I would rant that it was all up to me. And I sppose it is really. But they do worry about us in their own way. Try to give ourselves a break and remember this is a huge thing, both physically and mentally that we are doing. Hide away if you want - and keep talking about it. There is another great website called fertilityfriends.co.uk. Go to the international section, then Dubai. Loads in the same position as you. I went to Dr Pankash and Dr Fakih. Good luck. Think positive. And you are not alone! x Thank you so much Ant. It's helpful to know that other people react the same way as you really begin to wonder if it's just you. I'm not ranting (yet) but just really low and weeping all the blooming time. I tried posting on Fertility Friends to see if I could get a cycle buddy or something but no responses. I don't want to tell anyone at home, because I don't want them to worry and also don't want the pressure of them asking (more than they do now) if I'm pregnant. Also don't have many people here that I want to discuss this with and my husband has been away on business for 5 days- home tonight which I'm really looking forward to. Just feel pathetic and ashamed and want to hide away. I'm with Dr Fakih and like him, and the ladies there (particularly Madonna) are so lovely. I guess, like you, I underestimated all this and thought 'it's just a few injections'...! Thanks so much to you and DubaiCat for your support. x
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Latest post on 16 January 2011 - 12:39
Hi Dubai71, you are completely normal given the circumstances! I have done 5 cycles of IVF and two of them successful. At times I was completely irrational and emotional, and it is only once I came through the other side did I realise how mad I was! Although god forbid anyone, especially husband, if he tried to tell me to calm down or that it was the drugs. It feels so real. But it really is the drugs plus the whole emotional turmoil, the what if's, the worry, the hope... I underestimated the whole thing - tried to pretend I could cope, it was no big deal etc etc, but really it is ****** hard going. For husband aswell, although they might not show it or talk about it as much as we want or expect them too. Sometimes I would rant that it was all up to me. And I sppose it is really. But they do worry about us in their own way. Try to give ourselves a break and remember this is a huge thing, both physically and mentally that we are doing. Hide away if you want - and keep talking about it. There is another great website called fertilityfriends.co.uk. Go to the international section, then Dubai. Loads in the same position as you. I went to Dr Pankash and Dr Fakih. Good luck. Think positive. And you are not alone! x
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Latest post on 16 January 2011 - 12:36
Now that I can relate to - I had DS seven months ago and every time I've posted needing help and someone's said something nice I've ended up blubbering again! :D As a good friend of mine said the other day, 'this too shall pass'.
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Latest post on 16 January 2011 - 12:31
I haven't done IVF but I just wanted to say I so hope you feel better soon. A friend of mine did four or five cycles and always hated this bit as she felt so rubbish. Hang in there :) x Thanks DubaiCat- that's really kind, which made me cry (more). Gah!
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Latest post on 16 January 2011 - 12:29
I haven't done IVF but I just wanted to say I so hope you feel better soon. A friend of mine did four or five cycles and always hated this bit as she felt so rubbish. Hang in there :) x
 
 

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