Mummies with Wild Imaginations!!

Ok, now I'm the one resurrecting... I didn't realize how many people had posted on here! Dubaicat, the way you describe it is EXACTLY how it was for me. Yes, note the "was". I've had VERY mixed feelings about posting this but decided, it could help someone so... Aside from the wild imagination, I've had a hard time with health. I do have a fairly serious health condition but I kept finding all these completely unrelated things wrong with me and each would make me freak out and wonder what OTHER serious health condition I might have. It got ridiculous because I was constantly worried to the extreme and I have a hard time getting to the doctor because of my little one. When I did finally go see my doctor, I had a list! Now, in fairness to myself, the fact of having the list made me point out to my doctor that I was beginning to wonder if I had a 'problem' and needed help. I said this half jokingly but she took me very seriously and suggested something that had never crossed my mind and which, frankly, I wasn't convinced would help. She prescribed an anti-depressant. Prozac to be specific. Within about 3 weeks I started to feel like a different person. At first I was concerned that my new found state of mind was chemically induced and not 'real' and then I realized it's quite the contrary... the previous state of mind was chemically induced (due to a chemical imbalance) and the tablets have put things right. I still worry about my child and my health but it feels normal now. It's not constant and totally uncontrollable and quite so frightening and overwhelming. It's manageable. I'm not doing this justice but I cannot put into less than a few pages, the extent to which this has made a difference in my life. I think about it several times a day. About how lucky I am to feel the way I do now. I feel this immense sense of relief. I described it to my husband the other day saying it's as if you've spent your life with something constricting your chest so you can never take a full breath but you never realized that that wasn't just the way you were. And then you get rid of the constraint and who knew breathing could be so easy and feel so natural and make you feel so good???? Sorry if I sound silly but I wanted to say this because maybe someone else out there would benefit form this as much as I did.

I actually had the easiest birth ever. But apparently the lead up can be just as important and I was told that because I went through so much trying to conceive, it was essentially the same. waterbaby, I'm so sorry about the traumatic birth you mention. don't be hard on yourself and try to tell yourself constantly that you're not mad and that it IS normal and that it's also understandable, all things considered. Maybe you can speak to your doctor about it, if you think he/she would be understanding. Just so they know and can help you, if necessary, after your delivery. DubaiCat, as you say, it is SUCH a relief to find out that you're not the only one and that you're not going mad

I have a degree in psychology and have read huge amounts about PND and yet, I wasn't able to see it for what it was when I was under its influence. That said, I do think that maybe the second time around, you are more prepared to at least accept it for what it is.